Happy New Year

here's to a better 2009...

Happy New Year

here's to a better 2009...

Not A Good Day

It seems that the never ending load of things to pile up on me has finally succeeded in bringing me down. I'm tired, I have that 'I'm starting to feel sickly' feeling in the back of my throat and I've got enough work this week to last me until November. Now if you take that and add in everything that I have to do for APO (3 hours of pledge class studying, 2 hours with the big, meal visits with each brother and a room visit for each and whatever service hours I can get) I'm really starting to feel the pressure.

I'm ready to give up, but I don't want to fail. Blah. I've still got 4 more weeks to go. Talk about insanity. I'll be lucky if I have any hair left by the end of this.

It's About Time I Post This

about time it sees the light of day.

Some People Might Call it Beautiful

I have my own mind...

in which I speak my own words.
Sometimes strong. Other times weak, indecisive.
Sometimes witty and smart. Other times careless.

in which I make my own decisions.
Sometimes planned. Other times on impulse, stupid.
Sometimes calculated and beneficial. Other times irrational.

in which I see my imperfections.
Sometimes obvious. Other times sheltered, disclosed.
Sometimes invisible, unnoticed. Other times blatant.

in which I hide my past.
Sometimes in shame. Other times for fear, sadness.
Sometimes in vain and selfishness. Other times blame.
Always painful.

in which I see my future.
Sometimes clear. Other times clouded, unsure.
Sometimes perfect, successful. Other times failing.

I have my own mind.
I speak.
I make.
I see.
And I hide.

Just Kidding...

I'm back.

I Moved

Beach Bloggin...

Okay, day two at the beach. So far, the weather has been perfect...plenty of sunshine and a constant ocean breeze. Add a side of extreme sunburn and you've got two days down in Wildwood, NJ.

Here's what I love about the beach. Seeing as I only get down there once a year, I find nothing more exhilerating then the first trip down in the sand on the first day you get into town. Forget about unpacking or eating, just let me go. I pick the perfect spot to lay my blanket and rush down to put my feet in the water. It's so cold...but I don't care. After that I walk back to the blanket and let the lull of the ocean put me to sleep....while I burn to a crisp.

Eek. I hate being pale.