If I could do these things, I would.

If I could stop:
eating JollyRancher JellyBeans I would.
being overly sarcastic I would.
thinking about you I would.

If I could turn back time:
I wouldn't have stooped so low to get your attention.
or pissed off my best friend for you during the Washington D.C. trip.
or cheated on you.
I would have gotten help for stats from the beginning.
and never written you the note saying that I didn't want to be your friend anymore.

I want to:
tell you how I really felt. Or feel. I'm not sure which context to use.
dance around like no one is watching.
and drink from the [chocolate] milk carton.
wear flip flops in the snow.
and lay under the stars.

But:
I'm here. And I am who I am. And I'm not going to change myself and conform to what I should be like. Because then I'd just be cheating myself.

I've finally accepted me for me.
So [hopefully] every one else can too.